Please allow me a few minutes to explain.

As I've pivoted my business focus to empowering stay-at-home moms who are broke like me, I've been interacting more and more with them and their daily struggles they discuss on TikTok.

Most of them are just desperately trying to get to the requisite 10,000 followers so they can be paid by the platform for the content they create.

Most of this content is daily blogs where they are transparent about the real challenges they have: financially, physically, mentally, and relationally.

Their hurt is REAL and raw. Moms who have NO money for food and their spouse makes too much for benefits are proudly, GRATEFULLY recording content of their "food pantry haul"!

The real kick in the gut is some of these same moms who have spent MONTHS trying to get paid by the platform, are then making just enough to have their benefits taken away...leaving them worse off than they were originally.

This is the reality I enter into daily, trying to encourage, empower, and hopefully help.

I have programs to offer for work-from-home businesses, but asking someone who can't afford food to cough up hundreds of dollars for a program is not my favorite thing ever. And I've got some great programs, but morally, I just can't do it.

When the Mastering Online Profit program offered us a chance to do TikTok Audits, at least I thought, 'Okay, I'm now comfortable with asking a creator who's getting paid if they'd like to spend $47 to improve their content!'

And when John (our MOP mentor) then gave us affiliate links people can purchase for a mini program to learn how to do audits themselves, I really did see a great small business start up option. (Especially as the fate of TikTok hangs in the balance in the U.S. at the time of this writing!)

But I personally know, like down to my very marrow, that utter despair that life is never going to change and spending even $100 on the HOPE of something being different is too heavy a mental burden to even consider. The mental hurdle of chronic poverty has truly been my Achilles heel and has influenced everything, even down to my relationships.

But praise God! He STILL is moving and working in me and as I'll eventually be sharing, He has done a work in me since starting this business July 2024. And He's helping me see that HOPE is precisely what these Mamas need and He's got lots for me to gìve!!

That's just the background and I literally need WEEKS to tell you everything, but yesterday was just too beautiful to wait until I told you the whole story.

These Mamas are now in my heart and mind, just behind my God and my family. I've even started going LIVE on TikTok, one of my least favorite, anxiety-riddled activities EVER! But now, I'm not trying to sell, just encourage and give money saving tips, which is the pivot God has given me over the last couple of weeks. (I still don't know how to make money from this, but He is providing for our needs, so who am I to ask how?)

Then as I'm paying bills yesterday afternoon, I hear "that voice"...the One that comes out of nowhere, into your thoughts and gives you an idea that could have only come from Him: give away a grocery gift card to someone on TikTok.

A full-fledged plan was downloaded and Dale even thought it was a good idea. I got the gift card and recorded the video, all done in less than TWO hours from hearing the message.

But HERE'S where He got me: I sit down to edit and 'remember' I haven't posted on Instagram yet for the day. Over 3 weeks ago, I had made a four-part Instagram series of posts to introduce a Christmas theme for the month.

I go to my phone to post the last one and this is what I see:

I just about lost it!

This might not be a big reveal for you, but in those few hours from Holy Spirit download until this appeared on my screen I had doubted my motives, questioned my heart, tried to convince myself it was just me wanting to get likes, follows, or whatever, and had to remind myself repeatedly that left to my own devices I probably wouldn't do anything selfless!

Anything good in me, 100% comes from the Father's Love and Light inside! No...He had absolutely prompted this idea, so I could be assured that this business He has given me is purpose-driven...NOW it is! My original plan was just to make money-

a LOT of it!

But as usual, He had so much more planned.

Here I was, thinking I was giving out of obedience...and once again, I ended up being the one blessed. When I posted it on Instagram, Facebook, and eventually Tiktok, I used the exact same song that had come to mind with tears pouring down my face (albeit a peppier version):

Joyful, Joyful, We Adore Thee!

I'll throw up the YouTube video of the song at the bottom here. The chorus alone is worth the whole watch (and the portion of the song I used)!

If you've made it this far, congratulations! You have an attention span probably 500 times longer than the average TikTok view.

Some things just have to be explained to be believed.

And some things are still just almost unbelievable.

I'm learning to be okay with that tension...

because I know like no other time in my life:

He's got this!